"Pathway To The Outside" by LilyDay Darkstone

music:\”White Darbouka\”

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” Just Me”
inspired by the painting “Pathway To The Outside”
for LilyDay Darkstone the artist

Painful birth, the happiness was inside, upside down,
masking as a growing sadness,
yet hope is what my heart did feed on.
Enlarged beyond science,
so many lessons that led to pain, disillusionment,
compassion ultimately deepening and re-thumping its shape,
until it grew beyond the possible.

Who was throwing these love gifts?
Were they thrown in everyone’s direction, or only to me? I asked.
So many soul-mates washed up on my shores,
so many solitary docks waving them off into the night,
my heart tipped  like an overloaded ferry,
listing to the loving side yelling,
“Climb on.. I have room for more”

Aching when it broke,
filling back in when the hope shown through
no longer fitting on my sleeve,
I waddled with it on my chest
building hope nests that stretched the walls.
It made me sigh sometimes…made me cry sometimes.
Days it  beat so  loudly, I thought I might have died,
and blue birds sprung out of the light,
taking pieces of me with them in their flight.

Dizzy as a spinning night,
my heart just kept getting bigger,
regenerating  in  rhythmic pulsations by saying “yes” to everyone and everything.
“Yes I think I know you… but let me  see a little  more..”
“Oh I dreamed I had been here with you before”
“Just keep it coming I have room or…
I could build a new chamber for you to lay by me.”
Crackling ribs being pushed aside growing on the outside,
shooting roots back into my softness,
starving metastases, they begin to take  over.
Swollen, open, glowing, my heart is now a large parlor that seats infinity.
Is there any reason all who look for love can’t find a place in me?

Karima Hoisan
Jan. 5 2011
Virtual Art Gallery Linc Island SL