Maki snuggled on my chest
(Photo of Maki snuggled on my chest)
Floodgates of Gratefulness
For Maki
I’m searching through my library, my memory
looking for the music, that can help me cry
As now I have the tears all stuffed up inside of me
and they can’t seem to find their way out of my eyes.
I try to hold on to the gratefulness to have had you
I focus on our loving times, you amazing cat
who adopted me as your mother, your comfort blanket
who you wrapped around at night or anytime you needed me.
I am just equal parts grateful, with equal parts of disbelief
The reality of your leaving, has not totally penetrated me.
The absence of your self -assured yet loving presence,
has sucked all the air out of the room and you took it with you.
I can’t breathe like before and I know I need that special song
that will trigger the tears, like a seeded rainstorm over arid land.
If not, I fear I will just grow weaker in sadness, and not find that key
to open those floodgates of gratefulness and let them just pour out of me.
Karima Hoisan
March 29, 2024
Costa Rica
Digital Rabbit Hole 
Thank you, Karima, for this just beautiful poem!
Joanna
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Thank you so much Joanna for being so understanding and supportive.
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You are more than welcome, Karima!
Joanna
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Ohhh god, so moving. I have tears myself listening to this. You are so good at converting emotion, converting tragedy, into beauty; your words, your voice… So hard to say anything… but you are so good at it. Take good, good care of yourself, I know you will. I hope you find the tears soon…
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Thank you Dale so much…inshAllah they will come. Your words mean the world to me…I just feel so numb.
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🌹🥀🌞🌳🌳✨🌹
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🙏❤️🙏
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ouch what a tragic loss … so glad you had three wonderful years together! Draw on those memories and the tears will eventually flow … maybe it’s one loss too many in this time when you’re already feeling lonely.
Know Maki enjoyed his loving times with you … take care precious 😦
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Awww thanks so much Kate and yes I am trying to just feel the gratefulness for having had him in my life, in our home. Everyone who knew him loved him..Thank you so much for your kind words….Hugs you
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you gave him bonus years of real love that he never expected … who could ask for more 🙂
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Many hugs to you Karima x
I am so very sorry for your loss 🙏💕
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Thank you Maggie…hard to believe for me…this is real. Big hugs and I appreciate your condolences and your hugs🙏
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My heart breaks for you Karima 😪
Take care my friend 🥰
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Ohhh 🤗🤗🤗🙏
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Awww sweet Karima. Your words are so tell telling of shock! What a lovely tribute to Maki is soooo sad. What a special loving cat who was lucky to have you as a mom. I’m sending you a big hug and holding my hands out for tears to flow to catch them when you’re ready.. xo 💓💓💓
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Oh Cindy, it’s been like 36 hours and I still can’t believe or truly grieve. It’s a horrible feeling that I am sure you have experienced in your life..I function but my heart is absent. Ohhh I will let you know when they flow (tears). Thank you for this loving connection of a comment..Cindy..it really does help 🤗❤️🙏 Ramadan Kareem ☪️
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So pure. Tears well in my eyes as I listen to the genuine grief you express. Your solace will come, my dearest Sissy Poo. I’m sure Maki’s soul is equally grateful and I suspect full of light for the time you two shared on this earth. Let the tears rain and then the light will find its way. 🕊️🙏
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Thank you thank you Sis..my wiser sis who finds the words. I know how grateful he was to be here with me with us. He showed me that on a daily basis by searching me out just to cuddle up with me. Ohh sis, I will and am missing those surprise visits. Yes, inshAllah my tears will monsoon very soon.🙏❤️🤗
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My dearest Karima. Your music was so brilliant my heart felt the music, reading the beautiful words which I ache as I listen to them. Honestly Karima this line truly hit me. (like a seeded rainstorm over arid land.) What a beautiful line my friend. I am here for you. Call me anytime. I still grieve for my litte Esther who we had to put down about four months after coming here. I am so glad your wonderful son is there with you as was your gorgeous daughter. So just know we have prayed and will continue to. You are likely still in shock my dear friend.
I will continue to pray and thank about you, you precious gift.
Everyday, I grieve her, so to say, I know I am so sorry does not say enough, not when you know how long your own pain can feel like. But I am sure all these people who commented let you know that they care very much about you sweetie.
I love you sweetheart. Sending love, blessings and such blessings.
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Awww Joni, thank you and your caring heart. It’s a process, grieveing for a lost loved one, and I find myself still numb and disbelieving. I know the reality will hit me. Thank you so much for your call yesterday too. It meant the world to me. HBugs you tight…oh and by the way, I didn’t write the music, its from a Tai Chi playlist I have and I chose it for it’s intense feeling. I love you Joni…Thank you my sweet friend.
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Nice post.I subscribed. Have a happy day🍀☘️⭐️💝
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Thank you for subscribing, but this “nice post” was about losing my beloved cat who was killed by dogs.
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A beautiful tribute to Maki. 🤍
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Thank you Cassa…those were the only words I could find…but I’m glad you feel they gave him honor.
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I know. Next time, I will think carefully before sending it to you. So sorry …
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It’s ok it wasn’t really specified and I do appreciate your coming to my blog and this message too.
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You opened your heart to him, and he opened his heart to you, and that’s so beautiful! I feel so sorry for your loss.
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Thank you so much Dawn..I’m still reeling, he was my baby .
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I was literally speechless after listening to your voice expressing these heartfelt lines…tears in my eyes coz I can feel every single word…the love that you have for beloved Maki…the ki (/key) in Maki will open those floodgates, my dear friend…I’m with you ✨❤️💫
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Ahhh Navin, I know how much you love your animals so it is not surprising you can feel my pain with the loss of Maki.Ahh the “ki” will unlock those floodgates…Inshallah Naveen…I am still dry eyed but just feeling nervous and stressed…such an unplesant feeling..I do hope these floodgates are thrown open soon. I feel you with me. Thank you…thank you ❤️🌹💕
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🙏 Take care of yourself, my dearest friend ❤️
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Oh my gosh, I’m just now seeing this… I am so sorry for your loss. In time you will find those tears, and they will be worth waiting for. Sending you love and hugs and warm thoughts.
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Ohhh Joey, I still can’t believe it.. I have yet to cry tears,,I feel numb but nervous, stressed…not a nice feeling. Praying soon I will just let go and cry. I miss him so…
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Oh, I know. 😦 I’m thinking of you, sending all my best wishes.
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Please read Revelation 5:13. Your beloved cat is in heaven. Believe the Bible and not the naysayers. Hope this helps. I still miss my pal, Silky terrier, who died in 2009.
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