What I Was Too Afraid To Say

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Please Click Play to hear me recite my poem to the music of  Angel Canales, “Dos Gardenias

What I Was Too Afraid To Say

The things I  held back and never told you then
make my heart beat faster today so many years later
a giddy nervousness  starts to take hold of me

when I remember I was too scared to just tell you the truth

How many times in our lives have we censored ourselves
maybe out of embarrassment, insecurity, or to avoid rejection,
to not make a smooth ride more awkward by revealing too much?
Today I’m sorry I didn’t let you know how you affected me.

How just your voice, I could listen to all night,
how your mind worked, your sensitivy was on display.
Rare a man that is so sure of himself to let his guard down,
just minutes after saying “Hello, I really wanted to talk to you “

Well I felt that way too, it was so easy, almost urgent to be honest
and yet all these lights going off I tried to extinguish, put them out…
just so I would not have to think on what could come next,
and what that might mean in  the bigger picture of our lives.

I felt thrilled to meet you, few nowadays at this age, make me say that.
I have my friends, tried and true, years I have polished them, my jewels,
but you were so new… so very new, and I was caught off guard all night
I really wanted to dance, but I had no right to ask, and glad that moment passed.

As it has all turned it, well it feels so right,
today we are good transparent friends,
and, hopefully for the rest of our lives.

Karima Hoisan
September 15th (Independence Day 🇨🇷)
Costa Rica 🇨🇷

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29 Responses to What I Was Too Afraid To Say

  1. Jaskaran Singh's avatar Jaskaran Singh says:

    “Your expression is amazing, sir. I really liked the way you conveyed these feelings.”😇😇💫💫🧲🧲

  2. Thank you Jaskaran for visiting my blog and listening to this poem.. I am glad you enjoyed my expression but actually, I am a woman:) not a Sir…I just have a very deep voice:) Thank you again for commenting.

  3. daleinnis's avatar daleinnis says:

    A beautiful small story; another deeply personal but universal feeling. And another amazing voicing over a lyric track. 🙂 You just keep them coming!

    • Thank you so much Dale…I’m at the stage where I am inspired to “set things straight’ just honesty and transparecy over fear…it feels wonderful:)
      The person who I had in mind when I wrote this, now…. already knows

  4. Beautifully expressed Karima ❤️

  5. I think your voice turns everything you say into poetry. You could recite the dictionary, and that would sounds good.

    ~David

  6. Aww I love your comment(I know what you meant David:)

  7. macalder02's avatar macalder02 says:

    Una situación difícil, compleja para dilucidar en ese momento. Pero ni modo. Lo decidiste así. Se ve que, poco a poco, lo fuiste superando y al final, no fue siendo una preocupación que te angustió o limitó tu vida. Tu voz y la canción de fondo, dieron vida a tu poema. Bien por tu exquisita inspiración Karima.

    • Muchas gracias Manuel, y exactamente fué así..En el largo camino mi decision de retirarme por atrås era más sabia. En este momento , nosotros, más allá que amigos hubier causado problemas para nos dos. Sin embargo, es lindo para recordar este momento de vaivén..de incertidumbre y sentirme que sí decidimos corectamente:) A mi me encanta esta canción y aún más este versión de Angel Canales. Me alegro que te hayan gusdo el poema y la musica Manuel…Gracias por tu apoyo siempre🙏💕

  8. calmkate's avatar calmkate says:

    delightful, well said … interesting to recite to a song, awesome!

  9. Sadje's avatar Sadje says:

    Love the combination of the music and your poem. 👏🏼👏🏼👏🏼

  10. Very well expressed we cn all look back and find moments like these.

    • Thank you and I agree. These moments are very universal. At this stage in my life, I am going back and rectifying that. I think it’s nice to let them know even decades later, they weren’t crazy what they were perceiving:)

  11. KK's avatar KK says:

    A lovely way of expressing personal feelings, Karima! Your deep voice made it more meaningful. Somehow I found it a bit relatable.:)

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