In My Defense
Let me go!…for awhile.
I always thought infinity belonged to us, ‘the tragic homo sapiens”;
it was our reward for knowing more than was good for us.
So, I did learn to dance, which I think was needed,
and honed my sense of humor instead of crying
and learned to laugh and cry at the same time, while paying attention,
finding pleasure in the dichotomy.
Laughing until tears filled my sight… crying for the beauty of it all.
Ohh, the intensity was more than anyone ever let on-
and no one told me, the longer we ride, the faster away everything behind us disappears.
I probably should have guessed,
still I was surprised, when I could not remember anyone’s names.
Really, I am not a david and all that seems to come
now is, one Goliath after another…
an assembly line of things I stamp “Too- much -for -me”
Giants have entered the work place, and all I can
think of is to run away…run run run,
falling down chutes in tunnels
buried from sight, from anyone’s good intentions or advice.
Just let me surrender; there is such power in giving up.
In stealth mode, no one even notices, and as I said,
I have learned to laugh and pay attention, which might be
the last of my defenses to go.
August 10th 2015
Pérez Zeledón, CR