Fire and Smoke

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                                 “Open Door” by Dale Innis on Midjourney

Fire and Smoke
For Umahmad

I won’t close that door…as if I ever could.
I know it’s all up to me, but honestly is it …really?
Do you not play a part in this sad tragedy, my eternal flame?
Like being in hell and heaven now, for me is all the same.

In the world of shadows, I think they crowned you Queen.
And you come and go as you desire, igniting fires.
I am helpless to resist you when you call out my name,
I give in, let you in, but you go up in smoke… ahh who’s to blame?

I could go mad, and write just for the pleasure of your company
My beautiful unreality, is now our waiting room that’s waiting patiently.
I’m unprepared to accept the truth and so I will never close that door
That you left wide open when you breathed your last, to cross that shore.

Fire and smoke, dark bewitchment holds me against my will, paralyzed
Yet your memory almost pales and leaves, when I grasp on to reality.
But there is nothing real to hear or see; when you ride that swollen moon
And as much as I try to latch the door, it stays ajar in hopes I’ll see you soon.

Karima Hoisan
July 9, 2023
Costa Rica

 

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52 Responses to Fire and Smoke

  1. AmericaOnCoffee's avatar Americaoncoffee says:

    Awesome!

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  2. michnavs's avatar michnavs says:

    Whoaaa I so love this Karima😊

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  3. Gorgeous hon 👏👏👏

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  4. Wow ❤️🌹❤️🌹
    Love this Karima
    X

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  5. goosebumps on my arms.

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  6. KK's avatar KK says:

    What a beautiful, heartfelt poem, Karima! I could feel the intensity of love and emotion here. And the last line is just awesome. Well penned, Karima 👏💐❤️

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  7. swadharma9's avatar swadharma9 says:

    beautiful, poignant, addicting: all your poems about & to Umahmad🙏🏼❤️🙏🏼 tender, longing & loving too. she brought out the fire in you & it wont be extinguished🔥😎🙏🏼❤️🙏🏼

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    • Oh my soulkin…I know you get this. Oddly enough, I was in a time of “few hauntings” by her and I received a confirmation that a poem (to her) I had submitted to Spillwords Last Year, would be published soon. I decided at least for my blog, to record it to the perfect music, and I did…and listening…oh my the fire and smoke blew back in and I wrote this new poem to her. In other words smiles, the muse inspired herself….somehow:) Creativity is one of the Big Mysteries!!

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      • swadharma9's avatar swadharma9 says:

        creativity is a living power: maya’s very own, in fact🌈 to make something that didnt exist in that form before is a fiercely creative act akin to childbirth🥰🙏🏼❤️🙏🏼
        & it is not nearly as painful!🤪💕

        this creativity also does not want to leave the stage as the performance is so very satisfying❤️🤗🌈💃🏻

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  8. Ahhh yes to all you said and
    the last part you hit the nail on the head
    heehee I agree 💯

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  9. daleinnis's avatar daleinnis says:

    Beautiful! You have this talent for saying universal things in unique and personal ways. She has touched your life so deeply, and you (and she!) always keep that door open… It takes bravery!

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    • Thank you Dale..yes I really don’t think I have a choice now..almost 11 years later..but my muse adores conjuring her up when she moves close by, rippling the curtains, stabbing my hear with nostalgia. Thank you for the perfect image too…after a false start, this one won:)

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  10. P. J. Gudka's avatar Pooja G says:

    Wow, absolutely loved the poem.

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  11. This is so beautiful Karima. I can hear your words behind the scenes here Karima!
    “In the world of shadows, I think they crowned you Queen.
    🥰❤️🥰
    And you come and go as you desire, igniting fires.
    I am helpless to resist you when you call out my name,
    I give in, let you in, but you go up in smoke… ahh who’s to blame?”
    👏👏👏👏
    Aww stuck by your poem… nicely composed Dear friend

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  12. And I wish this door always remain open. For what flows in through it is so precious. It makes you write your best poetry. Loved it Karima. 🙂

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  13. Layla Todd's avatar Layla Todd says:

    Such lovely imagery and emotion in the final stanza!

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  14. So lovely, Karima!

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  15. Navin's avatar Navin says:

    Oh wow, I can’t tell you how beautifully you’ve written this poem, Karima…there’s always this special touch to poems related to Umahmad…there’s so much love, longing, that delicate feeling & pain in your lines…I felt the rhythm right from the very begining as I was reading this beautiful piece…it simply flows like the waves of an ocean…the love between you & Umahmad can be felt right away, Karima…beautifully expressed, my friend ❤️

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    • How beautifully your comment fits to the rhythm of my poem…it too flows like the waves you mention. Thank you for allowing yourself to know Umahmad, through my story and my poetry. You felt right away the uniqueness of this relationship. I believe and hope that she will be an eternal self-replenishing fountain of inspiration, through out the rest of my life. Thank you dear friend for all your comments, but about especially, about my poems for Umahmad. 🙏🌹

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      • Navin's avatar Navin says:

        Umahmad will be an inspiration throughout the rest of your life…there’s no doubt about it…you’re welcome, dear friend…and thank you very much for expressing such deep emotions beautifully…from your heart 💫

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    • I think you are right my friend…Umahmad will be my eternal muse (InshAllah) Thank you again, Naveen, for allowing the depths of my expression…penetrate you.. You are a unique reader and friend. 🤗

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  16. David Hopcroft's avatar David Hopcroft says:

    Beautifully written. In our minds we create our own version of a reality where the memories of others most certainly play an important part.

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    • Thank you David for your wise reply..and I agree with you. Our memories can affect our realty all through life, some inspire, some haunt, but they do change how we see our life:)

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  17. Beautiful poem! I could feel the intensity, almost insanity, and deep emotions through every line of the poem. This is what you get when a poem’s speaker, tone, and mood perfectly align.

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  18. Bridgette's avatar Bridgette says:

    What a beautiful poem about the madness of love.

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    • Ahh yes, the glorious madness of love!! What would we do without it? What would we ever write about…without it? Thank you so much Bridgette for reading and enjoying my poem..and this lovely comment.

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  19. I felt this one! True poetry with heart and feeling and humanness. Good work!

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