“Fish Truck” by Dale Innis on Midjourney
Click Play to Listen to My Spoken Word Version, To the Music Of Clint Mansell
The Big Fish
In my dream last week,
the scene opened upon me
frantically hosing down
a pick-up truck bed full of fish
flapping, still with life, but barely.
I was trying to get more pressure
and there was none.
Then I yelled to someone
“Help me take these fish
to their home in the lake,
You drive, I will keep hosing.”
They were skeptical,
but they were my friend
and they got in and drove
slowly towards the lake.
I ran behind, my infinite hose
in my hands, spraying just
enough water to keep them alive.
I was hopeful, I could save them all
My investment was profound,
being a Pisces, I was a fish too.
Then around a bend,
we hit a bump
The fish flew into the air
falling to one side,
into a big mud puddle,
They disappeared into
the brown murky water.
I yelled out,
“We need to save them!”
“They’re ok, they can stay there”
My friend stoically remarked.
Now I could not even see them
I dipped my hands in
but they slipped through my fingers
They must have felt ‘saved now’
but I knew it was a temporary reprieve.
In a few days this puddle would dry- up
and no longer sustain their lives.
This was not their home.
My friend yelled again,
“Leave them be. There’s a Big Fish
in the lake and it is eating them all”
They’re so much better off here.”
I sat down on the edge of the
muddy puddle, their temporary shelter
and I cried.
It’s true what my friend said,
In the lake they will most likely
be eaten by the Big Fish and die.
I woke up crying and realized
It was not just for the doomed fish.
I had lost something else so precious today….
I had lost hope.
Karima Hoisan
December 11, 2023
Costa Rica
Digital Rabbit Hole 
so powerful & sad, yet so pure & true also, somehow at the same time🙏🏼❤️it is certainly very moving! i could see it all, feel it all. a strangely cleansing journey to acceptance though 🙏🏼🪷❤️
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Thank you my soulkin.. I had this dream last week, but hadn’t digested it right away…Today however, felt like the day to share it. Big hugs for feeling it too. Your words mean so much to me 🙏❤️🌹🌈
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🥰😘😘❤️❤️
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Ach, beautiful and sad and true and touching again. When you mentioned that dream to me the other day, I suspected it might become a poem… The music is perfect, and you read it so… evocatively. It’s so easy to feel like we’re losing hope, these days; we need to somehow accept what is, but continue working in what ways we can to make it better. As you do!
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Thank you Dale… your words are beautiful and deep. yes acceptance of what we can do and what we can’t… is imperative now.
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So profound, and i think i sensed that conclusion …..don’t ever give up.
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Thank you for this comment, Belavar…at some point we need to know..what we can and what we can’t do…. then do… what we can.
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Your heart is a gift. I love you remembered this dream and your quest to free the fish. Heartfelt and lovely your soothing touching words and that last line… “I had lost something else so precious today….
I had lost hope.”
Not you Karima., you always have hope.. xo xoxo
Hope is the vision you hold each moment and your life is a reflection on those truths❤️
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Thank you for your reassuring words Cindy. I have been always a hopeful person, but I have felt lately in the last weeks, like I was holding my breath.. for a long time now..Inshallah as it left me…it will return again…. Big hugs to you..Your words are very healing..what I needed to hear 🤗.
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So sad and touching, but this is life, big fish eats small ones. You have not lost hope, you have a big heart.
being a Pisces, I was a fish too.., you are human and compassionate too, Karima! Keep doing good work 👍💖💐🌹
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That’s true Kaushal, big fish does it the smaller, but sometimes I just want to save everything, everyone. Thank you for your words…Yes I am not just a fish…I am human too, but sometimes, compassion hurts, when we can’t do very much for so many suffering today.
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What an interesting and thought-provoking poem!
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Thanks so much for reading Dawn. Yes this really was a dream I had last week and has taken me all that time for me to understand, on a personal level, what my subconscious was trying to say to me. Aren’t dreams amazing?? I’m glad you found it thought-provoking too:):) I really appreciate your commenting… also for digging through my old posts:) I have re-read some I had almost forgotten about so I could reply to you:)
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What a powerful and moving poem that imparts such a journey only to end with those biting and poignant words! Beautiful and timely writing, Karima. 🥰
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Thank you I think today my hope is not totally lost… but I wish I could do more than write poems in metaphor. Thank you Layla for your inspiring comment.
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Hi Karima.. scroll down and I found my comment.. xo 😘
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