I’ve loved and lost
and only pain can take me to those remote realms,
where I almost feel giddy as if I were about to fall
right out of the sky…
and it’s too hard for me to grab onto the words
because I’m still falling…weeks have passed and I’m still going down.
I miss you…everything you were to me..is no longer there.
Hours of my life…once filled by you and all your needs
have left me staring out a window…. just remembering.
People tell me to only land on the good imagery, your photos, our happy reveries.
I can’t help myself if I loop obsessed; the last night I saw you, will forever haunt me.
Loss is loss; who can measure, the breadth, the width, the degree?
Would anyone have the right to tell me, I should no longer grieve?
I still find it comforting, that the tears are being released,
because, many suns and moons are cycling, with you, so completely gone.
How can something so alive, just disappear from reality?
How can those sparkling eyes go out? How can they no longer be?
I know it was not your intention; you were just being yourself, curious and carefree,
but when you jumped out that open window at the end,
you inadvertently shattered me.
March 28, 2017
I invite you to listen to a live reading of this poem to the music that inspired it. Enjoy! Loved and Lost Live