
Maki snuggled on my chest
(Photo of Maki snuggled on my chest)
Floodgates of Gratefulness
For Maki
I’m searching through my library, my memory
looking for the music, that can help me cry
As now I have the tears all stuffed up inside of me
and they can’t seem to find their way out of my eyes.
I try to hold on to the gratefulness to have had you
I focus on our loving times, you amazing cat
who adopted me as your mother, your comfort blanket
who you wrapped around at night or anytime you needed me.
I am just equal parts grateful, with equal parts of disbelief
The reality of your leaving, has not totally penetrated me.
The absence of your self -assured yet loving presence,
has sucked all the air out of the room and you took it with you.
I can’t breathe like before and I know I need that special song
that will trigger the tears, like a seeded rainstorm over arid land.
If not, I fear I will just grow weaker in sadness, and not find that key
to open those floodgates of gratefulness and let them just pour out of me.
Karima Hoisan
March 29, 2024
Costa Rica







